Some thoughts

I really hate confrontation. Let me rephrase that: I really hate the possibility that someone could or would be mad or upset with me for any reason. So, if I know that I have to tell someone something that is going to make them upset in any way, I avoid doing so as long as possible. Mostly this revolves around scheduling issues as I am a very busy person.

I like being busy, but it inevitably results in the occasional scheduling conflict.

This issue started in high school, when I was heavily involved in my school's drama department and dancing at an outside studio. I often had to miss dance class for rehearsals and vice versa and it seemed like teachers from both places were constantly upset with me.

Anyways, the reason I mention this now is that I've had a scheduling issue with work and rehearsals for a couple weeks now that I've avoided dealing with. Because I don't want anyone to get mad at me. Of course, the longer I avoid it, the bigger the problem becomes and the more mad at me everyone will end up being.

Sigh.

Good news is, I called today and got everything worked out and I'm not getting fired. Which probably was never a possibility, but IN MY MIND IT WAS.

I seriously stress myself out so much.

Gah.

Also, I like coffee.

I've been obsessively reading about Kurt Cobain on Wikipedia since last night.

I am still discouraged that the car I almost bought tried to kill me.

I miss dancing every day.

I like when mornings are sunny and smell like breakfast.

I would like to learn more about my family heritage.

I like the shape of my hands and feet.

I'm in the market for a good book. Am actively seeking suggestions.